The Popular Loner

The Missing Piece…More about Nothing

Human emotions are funny figures.

We can’t seem to control them.

Ever find yourself missing someone or something, but your emotions or how you feel mean absolutely nothing?

Nothing like, having no prospect of progress; of no value.

At times I feel like I missing a piece, a slight void in a space.

I can’t quite describe it at times, then others I could tell you bit by bit what I am missing.

I just find myself randomly reminiscing. Then missing. Then thinking. 

Then realizing that what I am missing won’t be found. Its just missing.

What does this mean?

Memories bring about the missing. 

It’s just more about nothing.

-TP

Sunshine After the Storm…

Moving On

 

Moving on is more than walking away.

To move on means to walk forward in a progressive direction.

 Moving on does not mean to move in the left or right direction of another individual or activity that pacifies your needs at the moment.

 Once the pacifier is taken out of your mouth, reality hits you harder than a brick.

 Moving on takes time.

Moving on is a journey, a storm that must be endured in order to be able to look behind you when it is over & smile because the struggle was so beautiful & you are so much better now that it is over.

 We must walk forward through it all.

 The denial.

The numb feeling, “I can’t believe this just happened”, “It’s not really what it is” moments.

 The anger.

The “why did this happen to me?” , things you don’t understand, heartless, lost, the unknown full of rage moments.

 The depression.

The uncontrollable seemingly endless tears, more numb, the everything-I-come-into-contact-with-reminds-me-of-you, sleepless nights, lost of appetite, bottles become your best friends, moments.

 The negotiations you have with yourself.  Contemplating blueprints to fix all errors to make the final product just right.  But just as you have rehearsed all your lines a million times & is ready with the phone in hand….

 Acceptance kicks in.

You just accept the things that you cannot change. 

You close the door that you intentionally left cracked open hoping they would walk through. 

You lock it. Leaving the denial, the anger, the depression & the negotiations in their rightful place.

 As you move forward, your head is held high & you smile proudly.

 After the overdose of emotions that you encountered, you realize that you are only human & what you felt was nothing to be ashamed of. No need in denying or hiding it.

 Moving on takes time that no one can measure.

The more we rush through it or deny the steps; we stay in the same position in every situation making it impossible to see the positive in what’s next.

 Let the pain run through your system. You will breathe easy when the last drop has fallen.

 Moving on is more than walking away.

Moving on is when your test has become a testimony.

 To move on means to walk forward in a progressive direction.

 Leaving the past where it belongs. Behind you.

-TP